Thursday, January 29, 2015


So the plan for this blog is to update twice a week. I was thinking Wednesday and Sunday. Now, you folks that are more together than I am may notice that I'm updating on Thursday. I was going to write a post yesterday, but I was so tired I could barely function. Oddly, even though I didn't sleep very well last night, and I'm still extremely heart sick over the realizations of last night, I feel like I can muddle through a post if for no other reason than to let some of this crap out.

Tomorrow we're getting the home inspection on the new house! Steve seems confident that it shouldn't be a total loss, so that's something. We've decided to waive a septic inspection, though. The home inspection is $300. A septic inspection is $350 and there's no reason to suspect there is anything wrong with the septic system. It's a gamble, but it's a pretty safe one. With all the other fees and BS that buying a house entails, we really have to be careful how much we're spending. Some of these things have seriously thrown us off balance.

Two steps forward, one step back. At least we're making small progress.

Whanau is a Maori word that means family, as in extended family. Right now, family is a hard concept for me to deal with. It came out last night that there's been quite a bit of deceit and just outright lies being thrown around and it's set me back pretty far. I don't tend to trust people as a general rule, so it hurts all the more deeply when the people I do trust lie to me. I'm sure they have their reasons, but it doesn't make the deceit hurt less. Plus, I'm trying to decide how to move forward. With me, trust is an all or nothing thing. If I can't trust you to tell me what's going on, I can't trust you at all.

Sometimes families are difficult things.

Saturday, January 24, 2015

OMG It's actually happening!

Whanau Farm has been a dream of mine and my husband's for a few years. We've put in the work to build credit, find an area that we feel comfortable in, and look for properties. All that hard work looks to be paying off!

Last weekend, we met with a realtor to check out a house that was outside our budget, but she said if we liked the place to just put in an offer. The seller was a little desperate. We did not like the property.

So, we started telling her what we were really after and, much to our surprise, she claimed to have "just the place." Now, just to be clear, we've heard that before. It's never "the place." Until the time that it actually is!

She drove us 12 miles out of town, apparently convincing herself the whole time that we would hate her for dragging us all the way out there. I had seen the house online and wasn't even tempted, but as we drove past the outskirts of town, into true country, and found ourselves surrounded by Texas Hill Country, we got more and more excited.

The place is a pit. There's stuff everywhere even though no one's living there right now. The outside of the house needs repairs and sprucing up, the fences need to be mended... basically the list of what needs to be fixed and/or changed is far too long for here. It's also a lot smaller house than what I was centering my search on- 1400 square feet. But when we walked in, we were coming home. It's perfect!

A farm is a lot of work. A farm that needs a lot of work before we can actually start on the lot of work that is farm work is even more work. We can't wait!

So, this blog will chronicle the evolution of Whanau Farm. Wish us luck!